Have u considered an undiagnosed LD or add? Just because u aren't motivated doesn't mean it is your fault. There could be a legit reason... And if u knew why, you could be able to receive extra help or accomodations.

You are like me: it's like u think in black and white with nothing in between. You have more options than just: be a total failure or excel in school. Those are the two extremes.

U *can* fix this. Just because u aren't doing well doesn't mean u are a failure. And should not be an excuse to get drunk. U are better than that. I hope you can see that