
We all slip up at times and I can completely understand the love/hate relationship! Wanting it in some ways but fighting it in others. Do you know why things have really changed? Has something else in your life significantly changed that is causing you stress?
Don't give up. Resisting for months is an amazing thing and it will be possible to do it again. The only advice I can really give is to remember your reasons for stopping. Try to remember the good things about not hurting yourself and come up with strategies to help you manage when the urges are there. I know it is hard but it is possible to get through this.
Thinking of you

Hang in there.
courage doesn’t always roar. sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, “i will try again tomorrow.” ~ Mary Anne Radmacher