I came here because I was in the depths of despair and guilt over my mother's death and needed an outlet for my pain. My friends and family did not understand what I was going through. Although I have not yet found anyone who can relate to what I have gone through I am so grateful to have met some wonderful, compassionate, caring people here. I grew up in a family that did not communicate very much and reading others post their deepest, darkest thoughts and pain with such openness and honesty has inspired me to be more honest about myself in real life. I have also learned that you never know what is going on in someone else's life..so I guess I am more understanding now.