yeah probably it's time to make a decision

I just wish my therapist was on the receiving end of them self sometimes they might foster a different approach. sometimes I wish the therapist could see therapy through my eyes.
it certainly doesn't feel that way.

maybe that my therapist just simply can't relate to my life experiences.
I just think therapy is hard and I would rather see those who put me there in therapy rather than myself. let them have the emotional pain I have to deal with every single day. I thought about suicide since I was 7 years old. that gives me a 39 year track record of successfully waking up each day between then and now but if bring up the subject, my therapist reaches for a phone.
I'm just sick of it.
GB