i have been with my kids father for 7 years we have 3 kids together,its been hell trying to maintain our relationship,however i did leave him 6 months ago because he kept cheating, staying out and i kept catching him.. Now we are staring to see each other again and im bugged because i cant trust him, i cant get in the mood to sleep with him unles im blocking my thoughts.. i dont know what to do he says he ready but why cant i fall back and just believe him.