Thanks for all your input. I have to own my part in the weight gain as I never really brought it up to him. I just feel very comfortable with this Pdoc. He's pretty open to trying things and tweaking my meds if needed.

I've done so well stability wise on this cocktail that I'm kind of afraid to mess with it. I did try Abilify and it didn't help, also Geodon and every AD in the book except the really new ones. I tend to be very sensitive to AD's they make me hypomanic or manic.

I just don't feel like the "me" I used to be and I miss "me"

I realize we all change, hopefully for the better but I don't feel like I've changed for the better -I feel like I'm stuck in a rut. And no I don't have a T to hash this out with -tried CBT and it did nothing for me. Too dry. I'm an emotional gal.

I'm in a outpatient treatment program through a hospital. That's where I see my Pdoc. There are T's available but I don't drive so don't want to make my big bro drive me to T appts twice a week or so.

Will talk this through with my Pdoc on Thurs. Anxious for Thur to come!