you seem to be asking the question "why me?" the simple answer is
that this is the road you must take and the challenges you must overcome in order to be of use to other people who are having these problems.To help someone out of a bad place its helpful if you know where they're at or if you've been there,empathy say's "i used to have a hole in my boat,heres how I fixed it" Keep focused on living "on purpouse" and all of the periphial issues will take care of themselves.