Dear Troubled Angel, please do not despair. You are still very young and it will get infinitely better for you in years to come! Your mother has no right to be judgemental just because she gave birth to you. Walk tall and straight and look them in the eyes! You have nothing at all to be ashamed of. It is your mother who should be ashamed of her prejudice and lack of support for her own daughter. Please don´t hate yourself, you have no reason to.