it makes me think like the whole world is messed up. it makes me feel sad. i think people reach a point where it's not just wishy-washy passive ideas of killing yourself, and the pain has become too acute to continue. that's a terrible place for anyone.

i often think of suicide. i have no plans though. i got this far. i can make a better life for myself. i can enjoy life. but damn is it ruff out here, sometimes....