good post milanist! i agree...u've gotta keep on trying and persisting, it's not easy i know, but if ur determined enuf and believe in urself enuf to want that eating disorder out of ur life then it will go if u keep on beating it down. it involves a lot of bickering with that cow in the back of ur head whose telling u ur useless and don't under any circumstance have a 2nd helping and all the rest of it. bear in mind she is trying to kill u and u have a life to live. all the best, u can do it