i used to be a regular self-harmer, almost on a daily basis, tho i'd use methods that weren't scarring (bruising, scratching,etc) so i don't have a problem with scars. anyway i hardly ever do it anymore, but earlier this week i burnt my wrist on a hot pot...i iced it afterwards really well so that it didn't scar (of course!) but i'm just dissappointed that i did it, just occasionally i seem to come back to this bad old habit. it's usually if i'm feeling numb or removed, i hafta prove i'm alive and bring myself back down to earth. also my depression is a lot better, i think it's close to not even becoming an issue anymore...in short, the idea of joining the "normal bridgage" after all those years seems daunting in some ways. it's like i had to SI just to prove i wasn't making it up in the past, that's how different i feel sometimes.