If the two of us were the same person, we'd make a good complete character it seems. You want to go outside but you fear it somehow and you really want your friends to socialize with you. You don't know where to go or what to do. I don't have fears going out, I like being alone and I'm very thankful my friend is giving me the space I need. There are tons of free things to do here, like beautiful church concerts, lectures in almost any subject, a community mini library with cafe, a big beautiful library downtown. There are tons of different volunteer stuff you can do here too. Plus I have a million projects.

Still I also sit here... in my apartment. Almost all the time I think. Just for different reasons. And I don't feel my life is great either. All those things I want to do..... not done them in years. I stopped going outside if I truly didn't need to. It wouldn't surprise me if I got out one day and the sun was a blue square and I didn't even notice.