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The silly person I can be sometimes, I guess I may hold some logic even if it is madness to method lol, however I know I have not got the job I applied for 1 week and 2 days ago, however have not had a sorry but you have not been unsuccessful on this occasion so I spend a ridicules amount of time waiting for the phone to ring and obsessively checking my email then I go oh well maybe tomorrow arrr stupid person I am and wait for it when it's not going to happen. When I do get the sorry but not on this occasion I will still be heartbroken, I know all this yet it is sending my anxiety into a frenzy and making me over emotional. Well I guess it feels like as it's near the end of the year almost, that if it doesn't happen soon it may never or feel like for once it will be a new year contemplating what new worries lie ahead instead of what amazing things may just happen as I use to feel about this time of year. Mindinpieces if a lost piece of yourself is out there please return to yourself soon, I think I may have lost a few pieces here and there that may have flown away with the wind lol..... you have got to blame it on something.
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