Hi miswimmy,
the specific reason I am in therapy is in my profile and it's a pretty detailed.
hepatitis C is a big concern in my life. there are however many reasons that I'm in therapy. none of which I would a plan in under my own free will. it's very complicated but the short answer is depression, P TSD, dissociative disorder, emotional, physical, mental, and sexual abuse in my childhood. the memories of these events are highly detailed and plays out like a video in my head.
it scares me to change therapists because I don't want to relive all that again. the abuse was extensive throughout my childhood. have terrible nightmares of it.
I have tried everything just short of medication.
what I speak of in my profile are a few of the more easily managed memory than I have.
my memories go back to when I was 3 month old.
it just gets more complicated after that.
I guess my point is I'm just tired. my quality of life is absolutely 0.
hepatitis C is a big issue because of how much relationship is focused on in therapy. if I can have an intimate relationship, what's the point in going on in therapy about relationships?