School started on Tuesday the 5th. I did well on the first day, especially considering this is my first full-time year of high school since I was forced to drop out and be apart of a program at the hospital.

The night before the second day, I was hearing screaming, and it sounded like people were knocking on my doors and my window. I took some medication (leftover Seroquel from when I was on it), and managed to catch a few hours of sleep.

When I got up the next morning, everything seemed okay. I went to school, got to my first class (albeit a little late), and then about halfway through I started hearing the screaming again. Luckily, the teacher I had knew about why I dropped out, and allowed me to go for a walk.

I went back to class after a walk, and it seemed a little bit better, but when I got to my next period class it was full-blown again. I chose to remain in class, although it was very difficult to act like nothing was going on.

I ended up skipping my next class as I went to my vice principals office, where he called the youth worker down (who is in charge of the "high risk teens" that includes myself and others with mental illness), and I bawled my eyes out.

I am having serious doubts. I'm not sure I can do this all year. I guess I am posting just to know if anyone else can relate to this, as I am feeling really awkward and out of place.