I think that this is a big sign that you're probably manic. And, that you should be super careful until you get onto a med and come down from it a bit. Don't sleep with anyone right now, you'll lose that special that you wanted to manic moment instead of a magic moment.

You'll be okay. You'll cycle around again, and no need to wish you were normal. Those normal people have problems, too. At least we get to know why we have problems.