I never thought that I would actually follow through with committing suicide because I didn't feel I had the guts. But one day I just had the impulse and I ate a whole bottle of pills. Don't underestimate BPD. I'm not saying you will, I'm just trying to point out how tricky it can be. I am so glad to hear that you don't have suicidal tendencies.
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Dx: Borderline Personality Disorder, Depression, Chemical Dependency, Generalized Anxiety Disorder
Rx: Effexor XR 300 mg, Risperdal .5 mg, Cogentin (as needed for tremors due to Risperdal), Depakote 1000 mg
"Immerse your soul in love."
-- Radiohead.