After reading the description of borderline that is in this thread,
I became very sad.....
to think that I've had all of these borderline symptoms my whole lifetime.
I've wasted a whole lifetime with my borderline behavior. And also
the lives of the people I came in contact with. I am deeply ashamed.
Had I not stumbled on this PsychCentral website, I might never have found
any explanation at all for my worthlessness. I would most likely have spent
what's left of my life blaming everyone else for my problems.
I don't know if I am still young enough to make any worthwhile changes now that I can admit to my insanity.
I wouldn't even know where to begin.