Yesterday, I started working on a project in my drawing class that others had started the week before; I missed two classes in a row for a couple of reasons (including my car wouldn't start), so I got more behind than usual. This current project is drawing part of the building we're in, showing perspective and value. It's making me crazy. So many lines, doors, windows, bricks! Then there's chairs and things to add. I'm feeling like I just can't do it. Plus, we can't sit down to do it...we stand at easels, which is a bit challenging for me, because I'm short, so I have to lift my arms higher to reach part of the paper, and I get tired out standing because of my weight.

Then there's the assignments I missed! I can't see how I'm going to catch up!

Worst of all, I'm supposed to go to the college library to find a book with a drawing. My OCD wants nothing to do with libraries and touching used books and being surrounded by them. I don't want to spend any time in there. I didn't know this would be part of the work; it's been about 20 years since I was in college, so I've forgotten a lot. I'm dreading this assignment.

I feel like I could do better if I weren't being pressured to get this all done in such a short time. And I'd do better if I could work on it sitting down and not being bothered. I know the professor wants to help--and her advice is helpful, but I'm kind of shy and would prefer to work on it by myself and get her comments afterward.