I think there are levels of seriousness for all illnesses.
Some with a BPD diagnosis are very antisocial and end up being incarcerated for breaking the law. Others struggle in other ways, including daily struggles that interfere with our daily living, career, relationships. These struggles are usually about fears and perceptions that we can explore and work on so that we can feel better.

It's good to want to be alive and work on feeling better! Life is for learning!