If I take away all of the depression and the Mania....
I would have still had a horrible life...
bp is soooooooo much more....
my emotions were never stable in between. they were always so twisted and controlling even without the depression and mania that I would be in a tornado even without those things happening.

It's christmas time... for me a time of loss.... extreme loss... I am keeping myself extremely busy though. but time's like now... I feel it.