I'm in that phase too. Hated my meds. So I stopped taking them. Probably not the best idea. I haven't done anything constructive in about a month. My tire has a slow leak...not getting it fixed. I have bills that I won't pay...even with the money. I had a wicked fight with my sister and I'm leaving that relationship broken...on purpose. Its like I don't want good things to happen. Now I've dropped into this virtual world where my best friend is a baby doll. Its so weird.