(((((((((((avoice)))))))))) I am thinking of you, and your son everyday. I know the feeling of anger, frustration, helplessness I experienced when my son and daughter decided they knew EVERYTHING!; and it was the most impossible thing for me to realize, and step back so that I could survive it all,, because they were of age, they could, by law, destroy themselves if they so chose...They both almost did too! OUCH--major heartbreak..total helplessness...it was sheer h e l l! (for me, that is over now, though it is still nerve wracking in that they, at 35 and 36; still have to make mistakes before they will listen to me..then, they apologize...after they've hurt themselves in some way )

"Little People, Little problems; Big People Big Problems!"--

Parenting is sooo easy when kids are underage, and within your control!!!

It amazes me how much so many parents have to suffer once their kids are "grown up"--geez..you do everything, PTA, Talent shows, Manage Little League, etc... then....POOF!

and for you? Or me? That feeling is so familiar..yes? HELPLESSNESS? PTSD...it's as if the kids rip your heart right outta you, even though you did everything as you thought you should have: "boundaries", "Discipline" "Control"

We both monitored their friends, where they were, involved them in athletics, my son and daughter in dance, piano, guitar, church... all the right stuff to somehow get them to have better lives than the horrors we lived as children-( you and I, (((avoice))) were helpless little ones, easy prey to monsters), and it was so hard, cause we didn't have the background we gave our own kids; but we did it the "right" way, the way we always thought it should be done, I sometimes wonder if this sort of stuff is a sick "test" of our abilities to cope beyond what we already have endured in our youth!!--still, they know it all, go out and do what they do, and we are powerless to stop them...

(((((((((((((((avoice)))))))))))))--count down to the 12th, and the best outcome; I agree with you, I am hoping and praying for a rehab place where they give him more than 6 weeks: 6 weeks is not enough, that stuff is lethal.

Please remember something? This is not the little boy who you knew who is doing this...
this is someone under the control of an evil addiction; he will hurt you over and over again
until he gets straight, and back to being the son you raised in all good faith.

The "son" you "want back" has to get clean so the two of you can meet again...and enjoy life together...you are ever in my thoughts. I endured many years separate from my kids; because they had to get straight to realize What is important in life!"--

With you in spirit, ((((((((((((((a voice))))))))))))))take care of you, please? Google for a good rehab? Make sure you are eating? This will pass, and I am counting the days with you here..8 more days.......love you much. xoxoxoxo