Shattered Sanity you sound like me. No friends even if I did want to talk to someone. I have aquaintances who by no means have any idea the things that are going on in my life. If they did the'd run for the hills to get away from me. The few times I opened up to someone I think I went overboard. I am very needy and very afraid to let anyone in. If I trust you then look out, because years of pain and abuse just might come out.

Hezza I say so much I feel likeI have pushed folks away at times. Now I just try not to say anything to anyone. I have gotten a better grasp on the give and take of friendship here at PC. Most all of my FRIENDS are here at PC. I may say to much to them at times to but at least they have the option to see my name attatched to something and they can choose not to get involved. It is a give and take. I journal alot, I also talk to my T, and my cat and my horse. Do you have a pet friend. They make great listeners. They feel sympathy and show love. They never give up on you and there love is unconditional. They never tell your secrets and love you at your worst. My horse took all my secrets to the grave when he passed. Now I have a mini horse and a cat. They are my dearest friends other than my friends here at PC. Totally love Yall if you stumble across this.