It would be so much easier if we were just in this world alone, sometimes. When we have to maintain relationships, the pressure can be so great, even with a partner who's aware of our illness.

Don't forget to love. At times, it may be all you have. Right now I'm worried about my wife falling out of love with me because of my illness. But if I forget to love her, all is lost.

I'm disappointed to hear that you have stopped taking meds and seeing a counselor. Please reconsider this, as much for your wife as for yourself.