Awwwww Blue
First and foremost... Please know you can come here and talk about your depression all you want and need to, that's why anyone comes here, to share the good, the bad and the middle.
You have being going through more hell than most could handle.. the truth I swear! Do what you can, focus on the priorities only, secondary stuff can wait. Give yourself a break and know it is ok to cry and allow your emotions to find there way out of your mind body and soul.
Please take care of you while you are taking care of everyone else. You need it, you are allowed to do this ! Sometimes we need to remind ourselves it's ok, healthy and needed.