i miss you. still nothing. its been about 3 days. i am getting worried. you were able to contact me the day you got out of surgery, so i know that you can. but i dont know why you aren't. i am trying to be patient and not overthink this... but i am afraid something went wrong with your recovery. and im also afraid that you are abandoning me.

i got a 75 min lecture from ms m today about how I am slipping. i dont need her to tell me that. I know it already. I can't put my life on hold just because you are gone, but that is what is happening anyway, and that is why i am getting behind in all my classes.

I want to stay on top of things so that I can prove you wrong. because you thought this might happen. and i hate it when you are right (u usually are)