I have finally came to realize that I am suffering from depression. I have been suffering for years now. I dont know what to do about it. I have been thinking about taking Meds but I am scared, because I just dont trust taking ALL kinds of Meds. I just feel so emptu And like I have lost myself. I use to be a happy And a postive person always eing from within. I use to love to write and had dreams And goals. I use to get a high off of that alone. Now my smile is gone. Iam always ask why i look so sad, mean or mad. I hate crowds or being around to many people. My attude sucks And i always complain about something. Thank God i still have a Little hope, because I do believe prayer Change And i will overcome this disorder. Its just so hard..