Welcome to Psych Central, rockstarjim22.

I am so sorry that you lost your mother 4 years ago (I read that on another one of your posts) -- that has to be really hard. It's also sad to hear that you are having difficulties with your dad and grandma right now. I wonder if it's possible for you to see the counselor at your school so that you would have someone to talk to about how you feel?

Again, it sounds like you've been through a lot -- I hope you find a way to deal with the problems at home. It hurts to be yelled at.