I quit almost everything I'm involved in this week. Went to all my music lessons, club meetings, and quit. Don't know why. I worry that I've made permanent decisions I might regret later. On the way to each thing, I felt a certain peace with letting it go, but then felt much worse during and later.

I tried to quit T, but she's being a bit less easy with it. I just feel like I don't want to do anything and I'm a waste of time and space.

When I quit piano today, my teacher told me that she used to feel sorry for me (because I had stopped really practicing, and was I guess wasting my potential) but now she doesn't feel sorry anymore. She said she should have let me go a long time ago, but I quit on my own terms. I really liked piano. I just couldn't be a good student. All I want to do is sleep, cry, and eat in my bed.

That whole "I don't feel sorry for you anymore" thing kind of stuck. What am I doing? How do people see me? WHY CAN'T I STOP BEING LIKE THIS! I feel like people would be able to tell if I had a bigger problem than just being a lazy dramatic crybaby. I also feel like I shouldn't want people to kind of feel sorry for me. I'm just venting.