Hamstergirl, I am sorry for what drove you to attempt this. I wish I could really talk to you, but here if I tried or exchanged thoughts with you, I would probably have a problem with triggering someone.

Needless to say, I understand the drive to do it, but I also know that you are a fighter, and that regardless of things you have relentless fought the urges.

I hope that your friends do their best to help you through this and also get someone's attention who may be able to give you some relief from the pain that you suffer everyday.

Even though it doesn't help your suffering, I do care what happens to you.

Mary Alice