I should have said this on my thread about recovering and I forgot.

Since I am recovering from some of my symptoms and also from my agoraphobia, I have not been on PC as much.

It's 10:30pm PST and I finally got around to it.

I am so overwhelmed. I am going to a new 12 step meeting; have to go clear across town to get to it, but it's much better for me than the local ones I was at last summer, which were not very warm and contained much toxicity and dysfunction. At this meeting, I am being treated with respect.

That's good news.

So I come home later and do not have time to go online.

So I am sorry if I don't appear very supportive or present sometimes.

I may not respond to all the posts or even post some days.

Its not cause I am indifferent.

I have come to care about all of you.

But I think my "face to face" life is starting now.

I did online a lot because of my agoraphobia.

I will still come on here, but not as often.

Also,my computer is getting very old and more and more sites are not supported by my browser.

I am running into so much frustration.

The difference is that I am learning how to cope better.

I gave a woman a 90 day chip for sobriety yesterday and led a meeting today.

Had my first pdoc appt and I am not sure about him yet; he wants me to go back on Seroquel and I am so scared of that drug; I had scary side effects from it last year---breathing probl and swallowing probl.

I will tell him next time I see him. He said he is willing to try me on other things.

Andy called (former bf, now friend) and I told him we could be friends and hang out again, but not sleep together. He's been good support lately and so has my other friend Ani.

Bruce is getting so out of it; he's sixty something now; his memory is going.

I better learn to deal. I'm all I have now.

Carol