I have the opposite problem.. Even though most people tell me that I'm beautiful, talented, smart.. I just can't see it. When I look in the mirror I see flaws. All of them. All at once. It's soo overwhelming. Sometimes I just sit down on my floor and cry while looking into my mirror.. I probably sound stupid. I know that I'm pretty to other people, but I'm not pretty to myself.. I'm not smart, my art sucks, my body isn't good, my features aren't good, I have no talent, my stomach isn't always completely flat (I have abdominal migrains, which makes me bloated.. :/ ), .. the list goes on and on and on, nomatter how often people tell me differently. I've gotten to the point, where I just agree with them and put on a smiling face. .. but inside I'm broken and torn, and I don't want to be a burden, and I dont' wanna seem like I complain alot.. so I just try and stay quiet.
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I have not yet been diagnosed, or have even seen a doctor yet, but I know that I have Depression, and I'm pretty sure that I have Bipolar Disorder. I just told my mom about this a few months ago, so I'm keeping a 'mood journal' and will eventually see a doctor about it.
"Sometimes I feel like I was born backwards. , You know, like came out of my mum the wrong way? I hear words go past me backwards. The people I should love, I hate. And the people I should hate..."
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