we feel like we owe the world Lia...those around us the life that was given to us we feel like we owe that too...

so absurd but so believable!...and this has developed incredible abilities and it's possible this has caused an overdeveloped sense of responsibility!

we think overtime... we learned everything from drowning all the time...always on the maximum alert. We learn everything overtime drowning all the time...we learnt to be on maximum alert anytime because we kinda see all the threats!...damn things...

...and if maybe we aint' doin' stuff?...about it?....then the self esteem and respect many abuse and take for granted?...then we believe we don't deserve any!...none at all sometimes....we punish ourselves

...cos we know whats the right thing to do pretty much everytime, but cos we been drowning emotionally in our minds for so long...we are always trying to make up for mistakes only we believe we are making.

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meanwhile?....you are so tiny....and beautiful in the universe.

....by the way...it's ok to say.."hey I don't even get any of that!....and I don't reckon I even want to try!.....cos it's too hard to think anyway"...it's ok to do that....whenever
..and maybe thats the secret to floating?....thats what I do, got no choice but to say..."ummm I really don't know anything...though I trust I will when I need too?...don't even know that"...