I'm on 10mg of Abilify, together with Wellbutrin and Lamictal, and would like to get off meds as well, especially since I'm planning on getting pregnant soon. I have bipolar with psychotic symptoms. My pdoc said I should go off Lamictal, but I should stay on Abilify. I don't have any side-effects (well, nearly), but the brain shrinkage thing really scares me. I've tried getting off Lamictal and Wellbutrin, but slipped back into depression. I HATE taking meds, but when I think back of my first episode of mania and psychosis - I would really hate for my family to go through that again! And my husband, whom I didn't know yet at the time.

I really don't know what to do, staying on meds scares me, and going off scares me even more. I'm not that concerned about myself, but I really don't want to hurt my family. During my psychotic episode I didn't experience any hallucinations or heard voices - I just couldn't think, and when I did I kept having the same thoughts over and over again. And everything felt surreal.

I can't imagine having a psychotic breakdown now, I think I'm in a so much better place, and a totally different person than I was back then. But maybe I'm wrong?

Sorry for rambling on, I just needed to get this off my chest. If anyone has any advice or opinions, I'd be happy to hear...