Wisewoman,

Thank you for pointing out the people that would be good to contact. I know that has been my huge problem all along is that the people I have contacted about what happened just say, "that is really bad" & it stops there without any suggestions of any direction of people I can go to for taking the situation farther. I know also when it was happening, I would have loved to have someone who could have taken my hand & lead me to help me know what I could & couldn't do that was right for my Mother instead of letting her have the ability to mess everything up when she started making emotional rather than logical decisions. I know when I get settled in Kentucky, I hope to get into a place where I can help people in situations similar to the one I was in when my Mother was dying. Being an only child, I was all by myself & I didn't get any help from the social workers....it was like I didn't even exist.

At the time I felt like I did everything I possibly could....reporting to the police & to Adult Protective Services, but even they dropped it. I can understand why the police had to because they only took on the ID theft aspect of the situation & I was just too good at reacting to everything that happened & stopped it all before any evidence could show up. The Adult Protective Services is definitely a problem. I found out about it being a problem after talking to the leison between them & the police but he couldn't get any information on the case either. I can't just let that slide either. They are going to regret doing that since I dug up a can of worms....I am not willing to look the other way. I know that I have so much anger inside that if I don't do something positive about what happened, I will never forgive myself.

I have always been that way my whole life whenever I see something wrong that I can possibly do something about....I never have been able to just look the other way without trying everything I possibly can & turning over every rock in the path. Finding the path is usually the biggest problem.

I know that now, I am struggling with the pounding heart & chest pains, but know I have gone through it before & it has always proved to be caused by anxiety, so I am sure that this time it's nothing different. Initially I was taking a large dose of seroquel & it was ok to knock myself out. Unfortunately, I can't afford to do that now. The other day, I needed to calm down & took a fairly large dose. I knocked me out & I completely didn't remember getting a call & setting up an appointment with the real estate person who is listing my Mothers home. I was so embarrassed when he called & asked me about missing the appointment. I have told him a little about the anxiety that I am dealing with & that the meds can cause problems like this. I feel horrible having excuses, but sometimes I just can't help it. The worst part lately is that when I wake up, the pounding heart returns immediately. It is frustrating knowing that I need to do what I am doing to help me deal with the anger I have, but knowing that I have to deal with how I am reacting to the anxiety level is causes......a catch 22.

I want you to know how much I appreciate you pointing me in directions where I can get some help & I agree that I need to delegate once I get the full information out there & feel that they aren't ignoring important aspects of the situation. I know I can't do everything....except for letting every possible people know what happened until they can do something positive to stop her.

Thank you also EJ & Tanya for your support also.....it is a great feeling knowing that there are people who do support me & I really appreciate your words of encouragement.

Debbie