I was in a bad place and I didn't think this through. I was afraid to "go out into the sun" because I saw the world as being closed off, rejecting me. But personal experience shows the world as being an indifferent place, a point of mere existence without judgement or motive. So why not "go out into the sun?" I insisted on absolute certainty that I would not be destroyed, that is what held me back. But there can be no absolute certainty, things happen, that is all. So, again, why not "go out?" Absolute certainty is not a possibility, rationally speaking it must be let go of. I can act with foresight and reduce my vulnerability within specific bounds, but that's all, that's the best I can do, and that's all I need to do.

Thanks, I feel better today.