...this is what I do...

...I mean it's not like really loud sh..t or anything!...that would be superstupid!

...in fact...I make no sound at all...but it's a mental scream and panic...

I never talked much ever...much...never like I do here...I'm burdened with a detailed mind and emotions all left behind...

...after a few days things sorta build up and out it comes all sorts and then the panic kicks in I'm frightened like theres a snake in my undies...

I say.."hey God or what!...huh?...huh?...ummm?"...he says to me to feed myself and do some other stuff or what!....like pretty vague for a God and that......but hey even if my God is crap?...I cannot argue...

...funny boy cos I can't get the upper hand when I'm lookin' up at his feet!...funny God and spirits and angels...

and all them heavenly idiots dumbass ....things!

anyway enough about them it's not their turn they take all the credit for life...I want to take all the credit for complicating it....hehe...not really that funny...maybe it's even funnier!?

I gotta just run screaming into the distance!....

wonder how far I will get...I'm already part of the way....