I don't have any great words of wisdom. I just really relate. I've gone to my only safe place once a week for this last month, and it hasn't been safe either. I miss it so much. Four years of safety, gone so quickly.

I really hope this is resolved quickly for you. I think it's clear how much your T cares about you from your past posts. Although I know it's hard to see that when they go and start talking about the end, forgetting or dismissing what feels like important stuff, and so on.