Got the letter today... It hurts me so much. I think u mean well. But everything you have done lately just makes it worse! First off, I hate Emerson. I hate that quote. It makes no sense. "what lies behind us and what lies before us are small matters compared to what lies within us". That is so not true! The things before and behind me are what got me to the point where I am now! (not a good place) what's inside is marginal... No one listens anyway and I am stuck in my own misery.

U ended with "you are a thinker, sometimes too much, but hey, no one is perfect." I already know that! I know all my faults every day of my life. You were my harbor... I knew that you would listen and help me with my thoughts. I thought that you believed that they actually meant something. You told me that you enjoyed listening to my thoughts. Now I know that u just think of it as another fault, an imperfection of mine. That hurts. That is a big blow to my trust in you.

I am so angry at you. Because it hurts. There was no aknowledging my how hard this has been. No words of "oh! You will make it..." or "hang in there, I know it's been hard." u didn't even sound like u. You sounded uninterested. U should have not written anything at all... I don't want to be something that you "have to do". And the way that letter came across sounded like that.

Go away.