I'm sorry you didn't get any answers yesterday. Sometimes you have to wait a day or so to get replies.

It sounds to be like you are seriously depressed. I would think that your piano teacher would be more understanding than to just accuse you of being lazy. Obviously she doesn't see the warning signs of depression. She's not very observant. She's not a good "teacher." I really wish you would keep up with piano since you like it, and music is GREAT for depression. It can help you to express your feelings when you're depressed. When you're angry, you can "take it out" on the piano. When you're happy, you can play "happy' songs! When you're sad, you can pour your heart out on the piano. I play the organ,, although mine needs repair at the moment, but when it's working that's what I do -- I take my emotions out on the instrument. It really helps! My passion was always to play piano, but alas I never had one.

Perhaps your therapist isn't the right one for you. Maybe you and she don't "click." If you don't click with your therapist, it's just not going to work. You've got to have a good relationship with your therapist in order to really get things done. I had several therapists that just didn't work, and I had to keep looking until I found one that I really liked. I finally found a great one -- she was a psychologist, and was fantastic! We clicked right off the bat, and she did wonders for me! So see if you and your parents can find one that you can relate to. It's really important for you so your therapy will go better and you can stop lying! NEVER lie to your therapist, okay. You're just shooting yourself in the foot -- you're ruining your chances at getting well. Even if your present one isn't the ideal therapist, don't lie to her. Try your best to get along with her. Just don't lie. Tell her everything you can to help yourself.

I wish you the very best my friend. Please keep us posted will you? We really do care! And go back to the piano, will you? God bless. Hugs, Lee