which way where did he go where what?...how come I still don't know?

...how far back can I go and still find some real sh...t!....some real stuff?

...things that define me things that I can relate to?

...as time goes on I feel I'm getting further away from me ...so WHAT?...am I getting nearer to?...closer to?

I wake with memories of dreams accumulations superb idealism of where I was...

I shake with nightmares of illuminations disturb realism of where I will be!

I want to be who I was I want to return to the distance make it close enough I'm lost here in the time lapse....emotional abyss!

chasms....monsters...gnarled mind...mortal and unkind..

I want to be who I was before I discovered who I wasn't!