Hi Mistica It sounds like you have had mixed experiences with your Therapists, so sorry to hear that. Sometimes it takes a while before you 'find' someone who you can relate to and who will meet your needs. It is well worth looking around and well worth the wait sometimes though I hear that maybe you really are ready to start your journey.

I found a wonderful Integrative/Humanistic therapist and am now doing a degree in the same modality . It was the first time in my life I was given autonomy, validation and total acceptance. Person/client-centred therapy underpins my clinical practice as this incorporates genuineness, unconditional positive regard and empathy. I offer a safe and trustworthy space in order to facilitate my client's growth. Being integrative, this allows me to incorporate other modalities as people are all unique and all have completely different needs depending on their up bringing and how they relate to themselves and others and even their world .

I guess the reason I am saying all this is that it may give you another option if you haven't already tried Integrative psychotherapy? It can be long and emotional work but so so worth it in the end You are allowed to be the 'professional' in the therapeutic relationship, we therapists learn so much from our clients. You teach us how your world is, how can we possibly know how it is for another? It is a gentle process for you to go at your own speed, dipping in and out of painful experiences. Most of all, it is important to be accepted for who you are. Anxiety and depression are coping mechanisms which allow people to survive through difficult times. Instead of shunning and pushing them away, they are embraced and are a part of who you are .

I hope this has been a little helpful. I still have so much to learn as I am in my third and final year of this degree course, my clients have taught me so much, theory just enhances how I can facilitate client's needs

Best wishes, I really hope you find the right T for you . Take care, Kerry xx