(((gon3))),

Sorry that no one replied to you right away, that has nothing to do with your worthiness, Leed is right, sometimes it takes time for members to be on PC and get a chance to read your post.

I checked out your profile page and noticed you have been a victim in childhood. Well, my dear, you have come to a point in your life where you are struggling with your sense of "worthiness" and if you "can be" or "deserve to be " happy and thrive as a person. This is very "common" to people who have been victims and they all get to a point where they struggle just as you are describing you are struggling. And yes, if they don't get positive and understanding feedback they simply take that as another reason to "withdraw and give up". And that also happens when they get therapy sometimes because they have gotten to such a low point that they begin to not want to try in therapy as well. And it is really important that a therapist is the right match for them as well, because if it isn't the right match it will only add to the sense of unworthiness.

There are a lot of members who can relate to how you are feeling my friend. And we do offer support and to let you know that you actually "can" work through this challenge and learn that it is not your fault and you can get back on track with your life. So please do not give up or give in to withdrawing and feeling you are not worthy because that is not true.

(((Hugs))))
Open Eyes