I dont think its possible to deal with a mental illness like Bipolar alone, with little or no help and support from others. I have learnt through experience that battling alone is exhausting and destructive. Ive suffered a great deal in silence and reached very low points. I am aware of how difficult things get for me that I get severe mood swings, the really dark and high periods, there is a lot of regular instability.
We dont have capacity to cope with everything by ourselves. Helping myself, taking responsibility for my life involves understanding my illness, circumstances, accepting I need help and taking the necessary steps to get what I need so that things can be more manageable and positive for me.
This yr I made a real effort to admit that I am ill and to seek professional help, I realised that Im not coping very well on my own so I have been brave and determined to do so but I have been met with a lot of negative experiences which made me feel worse and close to giving up, I felt in real danger of ending my life. but im still trying.