Thank you all so much for the replies!

I have a script for a sleep aid so I'm going to try it tonight. I think part of the problem is lack of sleep. I have no problems going to sleep at night and then I wake up two hours later and I'm up for two hours or I go in and out of sleep for the entire night and wake up exhausted.

Today thankfully was a better day. I forced myself to run this morning and it helped a lot. I have so much of my identity tied to running that if I don't run I feel like a complete failure.

One day at a time.

PS I'm currently taking 40mg of citalopram.