It seems nobody felt inspired to connect with me on this one... If my friend hadn't called yesterday, I'd probably be feeling pretty bad about everything right now. But he finally called and we had a really good heart to heart talk about my OCD and he agreed to check in with me twice a week. He was so supportive and understanding. And even though he said he'd call regularly, I said this mantra so I wouldn't put all my stock in it: "Breathing in, I am filled with calmness and acceptance. Breathing out, I let go of expectations." So, thanks for reading my posts. It felt good to talk to someone, even though no one responded. Hopefully I'll get to talk to some of you at some point... I've read a bunch of different threads and you all seem like a genuine bunch of people who are really helping each other. I wish you all peace and wellness.