In my DBT group today, the leader brought up how DBT is just one part of healing, and meds are another part. I didn't say anything but she saw something in my face and asked "rainbow, is something triggering for you about what I just said?" I admitted that I've never tried any antidepressants or other meds though my current and former T suggested them. I'm too afraid of side effects and going through the whole process of trying to find something that works. She was surprised because she thinks I have OCD and that meds would probably help me a lot. I told her no one ever diagnosed me with OCD but I probably do have it.

So, she gave me some names of pdocs but they're too far away. Last year or before that my T gave me a name so I need to see if she's still in my insurance network, and that T still recommends her. I remember posting about meds at that time, here on the forum, but I just got too anxious and didn't follow through. I know most people take meds, and I certainly could use something for my anxiety, if nothing else. I don't know why I'm so afraid! Should I just "feel the fear and do it anyway?" (That's a book title, by the way).