ive gone downhill again, ive cut myself again after about 8 months of not. and after 3 years im seeing a pattern.
i feel down and cut ---> time goes on and i stop and try and get over it --> things seem to be at a steady normal --> things again quickly start going wrong --> i beat myself up trying my best not to harm myself and end up feeling unhappy most of the time --> things get worse i cut and im back at square one.
ive gone through this too many times for it to be coincidence. im just a failure.. i feel a bit useless and dont know what to do now.