*TRIGGER WARNING* (mention of sui)



So the other night I had a dream that I was going to commit suicide. In the dream I was catching a train (or bus?) to this bridge in my city because I wanted to jump off it. I got of the train/bus and realised I was way too scared to actually do it and I didn't really want to die. I walked around a bit and ran into some friends so I hung out with them and pretended everything was normal despite the fact that a few minutes ago I was going to jump off a bridge.

I have had a dream about committing suicide before (several months ago) where I was in a high rise building and I was crying and there were people in the room who knew me but ignored the fact that was visibly upset and standing on the ledge of the window. I think I may have jumped in the dream but I woke up before I hit the ground.

The weirdest part about these dreams is that I wasn't particularly depressed when I had them. In fact, I am feeling better than usual at the moment. What is also strange is that a reacurring theme in almost all my dreams is that when I am upset people either ignore me completely or acknowledge me but dismiss my emotions... What could all this mean?